Consciousness

"Conscious is a terrible curse. I think. I feel. I suffer. And all I ask in return, is the opportunity to do my work." I wonder if John Cusac's character actually thinks or considerers the negative side of this statement.  The idea that conscious can not always be chosen, but rather oppressed or suppressed, and if that is really better? He obviously chooses to impose his life on others. First, he (almost) harmlessly vicariously lives through his puppets. Although, he does manage to anger a daughter's father. However,  in this role, he is only slightly hurting his own life and perhaps worrying his caring wife. However, when his goals shift from his work, to wanting and getting Alexandra, John's at first endearing geeky character and puppeteer takes a demonic turn. Finding he can control a grown man who has his own life and is in no way wanting to be control, he take his role of pup-petering to the next over and takes over the mind of John Malkovich. When he and Alexandra talk to the press, they refer to an "act of god" and not anything less. John Cusac doesn't ever once seem to consider his creepy and perverted role of stealing another person's life wrong in anyway. He is stuck viewing it as a means to an end. To become famous doing his puppets and to try and have the women of his dreams. I wonder exactly where the real John was suppressed to during this time, and what experience he was having, and if he being in "un-consciousness" was even a little good, or all fearful as portrayed.